date: Thursday, November 12, 2009 @ 1:37 am
title: Change
Most of the time, life is really dead boring. I ask 10 people, 11 people (including myself) agree with me.
But what to do? Just need to self-generate excitement lor. make small things fun. make small talks interesting. make small people smile. You ask me how's my life been, I tell you its getting more and more challenging. more and more frustrating. more and more pressuring. more and more and more and more and still got more to come.
Solution? Grow your capacity to handle lor. That simple. To grow or not to grow is not the question, the question is whether you want to grow. if you want it, you will have it. That's the Law of wanting & having. What you want is what you attract. And what you dun want is what you will reject.
But now. I got a new vision in life. it is to administrate my growth. to be balance as much as I am able to. to be as stable as I can be. to be as steady as I manage to be. Maybe it is in my blood. I am catalyst manifestation of life. when you input the right amount catalyst, I will have overwhelming reaction and either I exothermic or endothermic. I explode from inside out or implode outside in. either way is bad when it crosses the line of delusion.
Sometimes I feel I have this ongoing disease call "delusion" Pretty scary at times, but I learnt, because of my personality and trained habits. Both clashes and thus resulting in a mental meltdown/shutdown/breakdown. And not because of what, but it is how our brain functions.. I can go a long story how our brain works biologically, thus we are as such.
Yet. I choose not to. because I believe nurture supercedes nature. You might be born naturally, but you are made to be nurture. If everything is ran by natural means, then nurture would be how everything will be expedite. But you have to make the choice to let nurture takes its place and nature to catch up with what is in place.
Otherwise there will be a supernova exploding inside of our mind and with a black hole created. It sucks the air of you, your dreams, passion and vision.
As the Proverb says, "a city without vision will perish" Dun be self-destructive city. change your destiny :D
